143rd Place Northeast

Posted by B.L. McGarr on May 23rd, 2009

Sitting alone in this cavernous room
in the desert wastes far from home
when lonliness creeps up from within
and the war rages on

I remember a place
where life seemed easier
seemed simpler
a long, long time ago

playing in the trails along Quil Ceda
the creek was a new dimension
where brave soldiers fought and adventurers forged new trails

We walked to school, just under a mile
to and from, dead of winter
when snow fell from the sky
and halloween was something to enjoy

where independence was celebrated
on the street, and in the sky
where friends were always nearby,
and bikes could fly.

That was 143rd Place Northeast
a thousand miles from here
decades in the past
a place long changed, a place long forgotten.

Inside

Posted by B.L. McGarr on May 23rd, 2009

Outside, bounce bounce
happy shiny people
dancing in the crowd
smiling, smiling, always smiling

Outside, strong, steel and iron
fearless, brave
confident
outspoken

Inside, a different story
homesick for a land
stressed and strained
depressed just the same

afraid, sad
lonely
afraid of what may
afraid of not knowing

lonely
always alone
even in a crowd
of millions, alone

friends, none
acquaintences abound
all around
except now

inside, on the inside.

Compass

Posted by B.L. McGarr on May 5th, 2009

I woke before dawn yesterday morning
and sat there looking, breathlessly
your motionless figure outlined and shadowed
by oil lamp light

I sat there and watched you breathing
so perfectly in the early morning light
your skin as soft as velvet
glowing a pale white

And you capture me
and fill my memory
like all the stars in the heavens
my compass in the night

I traced your face by finger
I saw your grace
like a ghost I sat and lingered
by oil lamp light

One day you took my hand
and smiled so bright
you were all a glow
dressed in white

And now the days grow darker
and the air is cold
but my eyes are like a camera
taking in your glow

And you capture me
and fill my memory
like all the stars in the heavens
my compass in the night

Once I was a Stranger
working with the Forest rangers
Just outside Cashmere
In the cascade heights

And you capture me
and fill my memory
like all the stars in the heavens
my compass in the night

Chelan County Moonlight

Posted by B.L. McGarr on May 5th, 2009

The rising sun of anger
the setting moon of life
that’s the way I felt
when you walked into my life

I was a lonely stranger
looking down a wishing well
breathing softly a prayer whisper
in the glowing fire light

Then the clouds they parted
and the sky grew wide
and I saw all of the stars
in Chelan County moonlight

I’ve walked this lonely trail
I’ve crossed the alpine pass
who knew I would find you
beneath ponderosa pine

Then the clouts they parted
and the sky grew wide
and I saw all of the stars
in Chelan County moonlight

You know there’s something special
About that Columbia River
From Wenatchee to dams
 that turn the dark into light

The clouds they have parted
and the sky grew wide
and I saw all of the stars
in Chelan County moonlight

You know there’s something special
about that Columbia River
from Wenatchee to the dams
that turn the dark into light

When the clouds have parted
and the sky grows wide
you can see all the stars
in Chelan County moonlight.

Melancholy

Posted by B.L. McGarr on March 29th, 2009

spinning round spinning round
my wold is spinning round
rotating faster faster
rotating

my thoughts are clamoring, clamoring
like a traffic jam
with no traffic man
no eye in the sky

what do i need to do to get through to you
why won’t you talk to me
why can’t i get this to work
damn he stole my domain name

all c o l l a p s i n g
into the river
into the flood
burning, turning into mud

this melancholy brain
suffering from strain
suffering from rest
not knowing east from west

c e n t e r e d
focused
ready to go
ready to go

a mile a minute a minute a mile
fantasy and reality
never crossing
never mixing

as the week comes close
as the time does s l o w
thoughts come clear
priorities come c l e a r

i know what needs to be done
transition project begin
develop myself and win
and sweep her off her feet, show her the real you within

might as well be
a mission to mars
but at least its not
a mission to hell

Space

Posted by B.L. McGarr on March 29th, 2009

some people say they want to go to space
as i look them in the face
and say that is no place
for me

they talk about being amongst the moon and stars
and galaxies so very far
planets and planets here and there
and all i do is stare

with mouth Sahara dry
i ask a question, stare in your eyes
it all sounds great and beautiful still
its just vast of nothing void of life

you’re afraid of radiation they say
you’re afraid of the cold of space
you’re afraid to get off the ground
you’re afraid of the dark around

i shake my head and grin
its none of those things, my friend
space is a lonely place
very much like this place

why would i trade one lonely vacuum
for another, lonely vacuum
darker
and colder

and that’s about when
the conversation ends
their eyes turned down as i walk away
with nothing more intended to say

2 A.M. Pager – A Tribute to Red Cross Volunteers

Posted by B.L. McGarr on March 24th, 2009

when we are young
we dream of superheros
of brave soldiers
police and firemen

their pictures in the paper
songs in their name
parades in their fame
and days of remembrance

we never look to the 2 a.m. pager
red and white vest
thick soled boots
hard hats and papers

the simple soldiers of mercy
the guardians of peace
a cross on their back they bear
humbled in the streets

we pat on the back
the weekend warrior
the reservist cop
the volunteer fireman

we thank the doctors and the nurses
the clergy and the herses
the soldiers alive and dead
and the wives that carry them

we never look to the 2 a.m. pager
red and white vest
thick soled boots
hard hats and papers

the simple soldiers of mercy
the guardians of peace
a cross on their back they bear
humbled in the streets

slogging through the streets of town
the shell of a burned down home
lives erased by wind and rain
the crack of thunder, volcanic pain

never a dime paid
never a praise sang
never a day of thanks
never

they may not always risk life and limb
but in harms way they come
risking all they can risk
risking their job, their family

we never look to the 2 a.m. pager
red and white vest
thick soled boots
hard hats and papers

the simple soldiers of mercy
the guardians of peace
a cross on their back they bear
humbled in the streets

in defence of our people they stand
allied not with a government
ready, waiting
moment to moment to moment to moment

next to you at the grocery store
your manager you work for
the neighbor down the street
your kids teacher, the list incomplete

they walk amongst us
humbled folks, but in debt we are
to their service
to their cause

for they are the 2 a.m. pager
red and white vests
thick soled boots
hard hats and papers

they are the simple soldiers of mercy
the guardians of pece
a cross of red on their back they bear 
silent through the streets

they make not a cent
spending more on equipment
to serve, to prepare
to ready to provide care

taken for granted
but they are there
show the volunteers
we really do care.

The Prayer of a Simple Man

Posted by B.L. McGarr on March 21st, 2009

i have never been
nor whilst i be
a religious man
that isn’t me

yet, today i find
myself praying
against my nature
against my belief

whomever you may be
whatever you may be
i ask of you
i beg of you

forgive this simple man
he has not done right
inside he cries
unable to comprehend

oh lord, it was an accident
oh lord, hear my prayer
we never spoke before
but give me a sign you might be there

take my breath
my soul
my heart
my life

take it, and give it to her
a child so small
so unaware
so much promise

lord, it wasn’t her fault
she didn’t know what the colors mean
adults know these things
children don’t know these things

mend her bicycle
give her life
let her grow and love
and let me die instead

oh lord if you are real
if you are here
if you have mercy
if you truly do love

you’ll take this simple man
and let an angel live
you’ll take me from existance
and let the child live

oh lord, i am a simple man
i do good by my hand
i work hard for my family, my land
but this i cannot mend

take me, good lord, the spirit of good
take me, so she might live
so she might grow
so she might one day love as i have loved

my kids are grown
my wife and i are old
we have had a good life
take what is left of mine, and give it to her.

i have never been
nor whilst i be
a religious man
that isn’t me

yet, today i find
myself praying
against my nature
against my belief

whomever you may be
whatever you may be
i ask of you
i beg of you

forgive this simple man
he has not done right
inside he cries
unable to comprehend

Dobson and Southern

Posted by B.L. McGarr on March 20th, 2009

so much to tell
so much to learn
so much
so much

so much electricity in the air
so much feeling, care
so much
so much

so much i want to tell you
so much you want to say
so much i think of you, when you’re away
so much

closed off, hide away
a lemon parade
shy, shy, don’t you shy away
not today

your eyes speak volumes
your demenor speaks volumes
you say much
lips never moving

each time we meet
i fall
i fall
fall

words can’t describe
i can’t say
i can only feel
and pray

revolutions, revolutions
like an atom
our charges aligned
an element – combined

The Portal

Posted by B.L. McGarr on March 11th, 2009

glowing
beconing
addicting
hiding

the portal opens us
the portal closes us
the portal frees us
the portal enslaves us

it enlightens us
it retards us
it saves us
it kills us

for all the things
good and bad
bad and good
indifferent and insane

the portal
the one
who morphs us
changes us

in the portal we become artists
thieves
bullies
priests

each day i look into the portal
of its twisting wires
its code of binary
its tags of HTML

each day i look into the portal
and each day i smile
and frown
knowing that this could save us… or destroy us

and we’ll be better for it.